so, how am i?

Another work week has passed and again I am on day-off.

I'm juggling things in my mind: on what to do first and what and how to write my thoughts down..

So, I just came up with the question..

Yeah, how the hell am I?

Now, I know I am fine. I'm having quite the hang of adjusting and nipping my pride little by little. I feel loved, secured, and missed (by my family). A bit bored with my job but I'm not letting it get in my way though. I wouldn't want to lose another job for petty reasons again.
Anyway, last week was quite a busy week.

During payday, Bok and I went to the mall and shopped. He bought a load of stuff.. like a whole new wardrobe (just exaggerating, but it's quite like that). I bought a shirt and a cute pair of check loafers which Bok has chosen for me. I didn't really like the shoes at first though, but a lot of people find it nice. So there. But, trust me in this: don't ever shop when you're sleepless the night before and you still have to go to work in the afternoon.

Bok's officemates like to hang-out and go to some place and do stuff. So, I got quite sleepless last week. The activities for last week range from playing dota after their shift (that's 5 a.m.), so I wake up early; going to the gym and play badminton, we were supposed to go wall climbing but weren't able to; drinking and making me sing (hehehe..); and going to a comedy bar.

They're fun-loving people, as you can see. They're fun to be with. I like them because they don't treat me as "the girlfriend". But too bad I just really need to get some sleep.

And by the way, last week's r.d., I did some cleaning up. I sorted out my stuff and threw away things that don't need to be kept anymore. (I don't know if you get what I mean) And it made me feel a lot better.

But there is still one thing that needs to be done though. I had a fight with one of my officemates, a teammate, months ago. It supposedly was nothing serious but we ended up not talking to each other anymore. And I'm a bit tired of the situation. I can sense that he wants to make peace with me. But I'm quite a coward with this. Yeah, a chicken shit.

Please pray for me. I'd love to make peace with him. And make peace with myself at the same time.

But hey! I still say I am doing fine.

I'm still a work in progress but I am alive and I am kickin'. (^^)

adventures in alcoy

finally i was able to go beach after a very long time.
and finally escaped from the lights of the city with my beau.

done: anansi boys

Finally I finished reading this book. Sorry Anansi Boys fans but I didn't quite like the it. It actually took me months to finish reading the book. Imagine that!

Maybe I over-estimated it. I've been a fan of fictional books most especially thrillers since I started reading. But no, this book did not give me the excitement I always get whenever I read thrillers. Just as with Dan Brown's The Da Vinci Code.

For me, the story is too predictable. I still haven't read half of the book and I can already sense where the story leads.

Anyway, John no offense. But thank you so much for lending me your book. It's been quite a while since I borrowed it from you. Don't worry I'm finally returning it. (^^)

..p.e.a.c.e..

dilemma in the unreality

[--- overdue post: October 9, 2008]

02-04-1992 copyright Dilbert.com

Guess what happened to me this morning?

I dreamt that I got terminated from my job because I was 1 hour late for work. Haha! And guess what? It took several replays of the dream until I woke up and realized that it was not true...

Good thing...

Cause I was about to cry? hmmmnnn... a bit... ummm... maybe..

But in my dream, I was already calling my mom telling her that I'm 1 hour late for work and I got terminated..

*whew*

AND! I was so soo sooooo early at work today. I arrived about an hour and so earlier.. haha!

...sometimes it's really good to wake up in reality...

dilemma

[overdue post --- October 8, 2008]

09 -21-2008 copyright Dilbert.com

My head is aching.

Last week I was about to lose a loved-one. But right now, I'm facing a new dilemma..

A dilemma where there is no turning back and no work-around about it.

I was friggin late today. I thought I could still make it on time though but unfortunately I did not.

And the hell.. my company doesn't give any lee-way to any tardiness and absences even though for at least 3 minutes or excused absences (like when you called-in sick and you have the necessary document to prove that you are sick)..

A thought of resignation came to my mind but the heck I can't because I'll be paying the bond stated in the contract for Php 100,000. Haha! Where the heck can I get that friggin' amount?! (T T)

Anyway, I'm a bit scared that I'd be terminated. I'm still in my probie period. December would be my endpoint. That's my regularization month. I don't know how I'll be able to make up to this. But anyway, I'll still try to get high scores though. But don't count on my sales. Probably I need to focus more on my job than salivating on the out-of-town getways Bok and his officemates are having... too bad I've become one of their crowd.. And too bad they have the job I would have wanted.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!

Why do I get to become the unlucky one? And be the mojo for the other?!

That's quite unfair, you know. I've been a goody little girl and why should it always be me who needs to be in these situati? *snnff* *snnff*

...I can actually sense the hostility in the office... I don't know. People are just too nosy of what's goin' on with my personal life that everytime somethings up with me (tardy, evident eyebags, and more) they tend to think "something malicious" about me.

Quite immature and unprofessional.

I'll just up for a few months and focus on my scorecard. I'll still have fun with Bok and the Dell guys. And get in the office to work and for work's sake.

...I'm still uncertain about my future here (if I do have one)...

I'll need to set aside my plans of getting a higher position for now. I need to survive here for a year so that things done after that would be legal and would not affect my employment in the future.. just in case.

Anyway... I just need to focus. Save enough money.

And...

...

... call my mom..

another boring episode: candymag

Another of those low-call-volume-days in the office.. And here I am again.. surfing through the web and got myself to answer these silly quizzes.. nyehehehe...

You're a reggae mistress! You love that distinct beat that gets you relaxed and energetic at the same time. You love the sand, the surf and laidback chic. Groove out with Bob Marley and the Wailers, Ziggy Marley, Black Uhuru and Jimmy Cliff.

Michael Cera from Juno and Superbad. Whatever "the simple girl" is, you know you fall into that category, and you expect your boy to be low-maintenance too. If you're not afraid to look silly and you think geek is the new cool, Michael's your man. (Seth who?!)

The In Your Face Dude/Jack Black. You're a sucker for the king of class clowns! He’s totally hilarious and every moment you spend with him is just one big riot. He's willing to make fun of himself to get a laugh out of you—but it can be a pain to get him to switch to his serious side.Watch him in: Kung Fu Panda, Tropic Thunder.

Chick Flick/Romantic Comedy. As a child, you loved fairy tales and dreamed that your prince charming would find you one day. Now that you're older, you're crazy about modern-day fairy tales (a.k.a. chick flicks). You often wish your life could be exactly like your favorite movie. But remember that life isn't about the prince, happy endings, and falling in love. If you play your cards right, you'll get your very own happy ending.

A Little Mystery and Adventure. Anything that calls us to walk an unfamiliar path is an adventure, parachutes and snake-infested jungles are optional. If you feel like all your days have melted into a single day, same morning routine, same conversations, same regrets while you stare at the ceiling before you sleep, it's time to choose the life less ordinary. You don't need to travel far for an adventure, what's different and daring could be waiting around the corner in a class, restaurant, or hobby you've been too scared to try; or even closer, inside you, like the fears you've been holding on to: of being judged, rejected, or alone. It's usually things we don't know that frighten us, and the only way to face them is to find out what they're all about. As the great poet T.S. Eliot said, "Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." The next time the thought of something scares you, take a deep breath and go for it!

Fear Factor. Chugging down a shake made from live house flies and blended maggots or free-falling from 200 meters above the ground -- most people find these gross and scary. But you find them exciting. Life just wouldn't be complete without your regular thrills and highs. Wild, outrageous, extraordinary, bizarre, and out of this world -- put them together and what have you got? Adrenaline-junkie you! Take more quizzes like this on Candymag.com

coffee blogthings

I thought of changing today's post to this because the original post seemed too long. And I thought I may have also bored you to death with. Anyway, I took these test the same day I took the test I have in the original post.

These test were taken a few weeks back during a very boooring day in the office. There was very low low low call volume and so there. Thanks so much to mara I had myself things to do.

And by the way, I'm saving the other blogthings test results for future posts. I may still be able to make more meaningful posts to it.

Anyway, here goes:

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.
However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.
You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.
You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please.

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern

At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent

You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet

Your caffeine addiction level: low

What Does Your Latte Say About You?

What Your Latte Says About You

You don't treat yourself very often. You find that indulging doesn't jibe with your very disciplined life.

You can be quite silly at times, but you know when to buckle down and be serious.

Intense and energetic, you aren't completely happy unless you are bouncing off the walls.

You're addicted to caffeine. There's no denying it.

You are responsible, mature, and truly an adult. You're occasionally playful, but you find it hard to be carefree.

You are expressive and friendly, but you are never pushy.

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

What Kind of Tea Are You?

You Are Black Tea

You have a bold personality. You're not afraid of simply being yourself.
You have the courage to speak the truth. You are fearless in your actions.

You come off as a bit intimidating and unapproachable. Only confident people are attracted to you.
You don't try to scare off anyone. You're just an intense person!