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Sorry I'm too tired to write the details right now... I'm exhausted with all the school requirments which until now I'm still not done with.. I'm really lonely (like.. listen to this song, "Whiskey Lullabye" by Brad Paisely and Alison Krauss).. There are a lot of things in my head.. I feel really torned... uhuhuhu... I'm geting a lot more suicidal... :C OooooooooooH!

I'm sorry guys... I'll tell you all my mishaps on my next post...


(currently listening to "Cowboy Take Me Away" by Dixie Chicks...)

Blank

I don't know what title to give for this entry..

Anyway, I'm surfing the net to hopefully finish one of my course requirements.. I don't know.. I wasn't really anxious on going online right now.. And now here I am.. Blabbing something just to have something to do.. or maybe to pump me up..

The internet connection's kinda' slow.. And.. basta! Seconds ago, my mind just went blank... like, here I am.. facing the computer.. and I feel like I don't know what I'm doing in here..

Yeah... I guess.. it's better that I'll just write so that I won't end up facing the monitor just wide-eyed... haha...

There are still lots of things that I have to get done with... Maybe.. I'll take a minute to "refresh" my brain or my system... whatever.. 'coz medyo nag-hang ako brain.. haha!

Maybe this is the after effect of doing nothing the whole day... anyway, my classmates promised to help me in the analysis for my baby thesis..

*sigh*

I'm exhausted... and.. errr... I can't find my beau...

I guess I'd better get started before I'll end up doing nothing...

Overnight Nothingness

Well.. the title says it all... Last saturday I had an overnight "session" (chuva) in a net cafe.. haha.. for the second time.. but unlike the last time I spent my evening in a cafe, it was more cozy in the in the second one... like, I was able to sit cross-legged on the chair... hahaha... and, I didn't freeze to death? (exagge!)

Well... umm... it was better last saturday 'coz I was able to download a lot of stuff... hehehe... errr.. mp3.. haha...

Anyway, before I started surfing the net... umm... I don't know what hit me.. but, for about I dunno.. I was playing with the cam... hahaha! (ignoramus!)..

Well... I guess that's what I did the whole evening.. downloaded a lot of mp3's and of course (I just can't stand it.. haha..), I edited my blog... c=

And before I went to the cafe where I'll be spending my evening... I kinda' played DotA again with "the guys"... hehehe... and guess what?! I had TRIPLE KILL!!! mwahahahaha! :evil:

The nocturnal.. haha...


... And ummm... after being awake the whole evening... I spent the next day sleeping.. I finally woke up at five in the afternoon because I had those "whirling spells" again... It still occurs everyday for about minutes... =C I don't know what's wrong with me but I can't just lay in my bed all the time... it's finals week and I just can't give up everthing just like that... hehehe..

Oh! I had taho in the morning... hehehe..

Two Parts

This is a two-part story which I finished inspite my aching stomach. I dunno if both have relevance with each other.. But these were what happened to me yesterday.. Here it goes:


Part I: The Result!!!

The doctor said it's POSITIVE... I'm gonna be a mom.. KIDDIN' (hehehehe)

okay.. I recieved the result last Thursday evening.. I was looking over it as if deciphering an ancient scripture.. I got confused actually because it doesn't tell anything about an abnormality in my hemoglobin count or something.. My mom also got confused so we decided to let my aunt (who is a nurse) see the result... and decipher the code? hehe..

So last night, when I arrived home I asked my mom about the result.. And alas! I was right.. My aunt said that the result says that everything's normal... (wierd...) However, my mom told me that I'm getting my eyes checked soon.. Because probably my eyes are the ones having defects..

waaaaaaaaah!!! that's bad news!!! well... on one hand it is since I won't be able to read the new book my beau gave me.. and my mom would probably be monitoring how much time I'd be spending in front of the computer.. However, it would also be a good news because "probably" I won't be prohibited to sing and stay out late at night because I'm anemic? haha! (as if I have a choice..)

I'm already feeling a lot better, however, the "the whirling spells" still occur (ssshhh... don't tell my mom...).. It doesn't stay long though.. It only happens for about seconds (an improvement, I guess..).. Anyway, it last occured early this dawn when I woke up.. it happened twice.. (heeeheee!)

Well... I still don't know what's wrong with me... probably it's nothing really serious, though I'm expecting the reverse..(haha! how pathetic..).. so there's nothing to worry about..

Anyway...One thing I learned from this experience... "BAWAL MAGKA-SAKIT".. Especially if you're a student of MSU-IIT and it's gonna be the finals week..

haha.. Anyway, wish me luck!!


Part II: The Hunting

After being sick, I attended class last Thursday afternoon.. Good timing 'coz everyone's (including us) getting their application for defense for the proposals signed by the professors.. (the defense is gonna be this Monday.. and our group is first to defend..)

Well.. the story goes like this...

After we've let our professors sign our application.. We were supposed to give them a copy of our thesis proposal, however, our group wasn't able to reproduce one so we promised them to give them their copies the next day (Friday, yesterday) early in the morning..

But due to some classes and misunderstandings.. we weren't able to do so...

When I was done printing and reprinting and reproducing copies for our professors... Too bad.. 'coz our professors have already left the office.. so.. we asked help to those who'll be meeting the said professors the next day...

But, we were left with no choice but to really look for them and hand them their copies... So, from our current destination (Sociology Dept.) we went out to Jollibee (just outside the campus) to meet one of our classmate who'll tell us how to reach one of the professor's house...

After repeating the directions again and again... we went to our next destination.. Our chairperson's house.. It was just a short walk though... since she lived somewhere outside the campus... good thing that she was playing with her dogs when we reached her home.. in good mood I guess..

Next stop was Sir Aguado's place... from the highway, we took a 15-minute ride... then walked a bit.. then got barked at by Sir Aguado's dogs... He was mumbling something about not taking it if it'll be given today, while reaching for his copy.. Well... we didn't mind him that much since we're already happy to have given our panel members their copies...

So again we took a ride... Me and Doreen went back to school still hoping to see our thesis adviser and give her her copy...while Joy went somewhere... Unfortunately, we weren't able to find our adviser there so we decided to go home and and just look for her the next day... But a good thing happened! (at least) Our adviser texted us and told us that she's attending a meeting and that she will be in school today at 10:00 a.m... It was a relief, I guess...

But we're still not saved with what is gonna happen this Monday...

Wish us luck!!!

Dizzy

Okay... obviously, that is me.. but if you'll look really closely.. you'll notice something... see that? That white thing on my arm...

Oh well.. it's early morning and I'm already in a cafe.. I'm from the hospital, actually... got myself some CBC stuff.. I was advised by my mom to get my blood checked... for two days I've been ill... it's not the normal illness that most people feel (uh... i guess so...).. But it's not most of the time that people feel really dizzy.. like, you're already lying flat on your bed and still everything is turning...

I felt this way wednesday last week, I just got myself some sleep then sped to school since it was the last consultation before the deadline of our first draft for our thesis proposal... I never expected it would happen again...

Last Tuesday, a few minutes after everyone has left me home... I felt that dizzy feeling again.. At first, I just laid in bed hoping for the feeling to go away.. But it didn't... So, everytime I the "turning around" thing slows down, I rushed on doing something to help me.. I got outside to reload my phone.. Then, drank a glass of lukewarm water with sugar (hoping it would keep me alive.. just something I learned from my many fainting experiences..)..

I really got alarmed since I puked 3 times and still everything was still whirling round and round... and not to mention, I was alone... So, I sought help... hoping my "prince charming" would come to my rescue... Well... I texted him, but unfortunately his phone was turned off.. so I texted everyone (his classmates, my classmates) for help..

I was really scared.. I was already on tears and was gasping for breath while I was asking for help... I got soaked with tears and sweat... I really thought that it was the end... haha...

But anyway, my prince charming arrived when the dizzy feeling have already subsided... But I was still glad to have someone there beside me.. We just fell asleep... and when we woke up, we heard some familiar voices outside.. asking my neighbors about me.. We got really surprised that his classmates came..

They got worried with my text messages so they came, thinking my beau wasn't able to come... (i feel really sorry if they got worried, but I was so thankful they came..)

And, yesterday.. the same thing happened... However, I rushed myself to "the apartment" when the dizzy feeling started again.. I stayed there the whole afternoon...

Okay... back to the pictures... just as I've said, I got blood checked... It's my first time really... they got, I think, 5 cc of blood... I'm still waiting for the result.. I think I'll be able to get it this noon..

By the way, when I saw the injection and felt in my flesh... haha! I had second thoughts of dying!!! Well, stupid me..


Oh! I'm really sorry for having all the guys in "the apartment" worried... And thank you for your concern... C=

This is what I got after a lot of sleepless nights.. It still hurts.. a bit..

Clumsy

Okay.. I was supposed to be finished editing this blog. I was alresdy happy and contented with the changes I made...

Then I thought of taking a peep with the other blog templates (just peep..) but I accidentally clicked the "Use this template button".. I never thought that the changes were already saved until I republished my whole blog after deleting some links..

And so... All of my efforts became really wasted..Oooooh! Just because of my clumsiness..

I don't have any time left to edit this blog back to how it's supposed to look since I've got only 45 minutes left to stay in this cafe...

I don't know when I'd be able to totally refurnish this blog.. Anyway, the posts were not affected so you can still view and read them and give comments on them if you'd like..

well.. my tummy's starting to beg for food... and my hands can't wait to get out of this really coooold place (brrr!)..

So keep hopping by!!

Good morning!

...

I forgot to tell.. I just finished editing my blog... If you'd notice, I've changed the font size of my posts.. I just thought that tiny font size would be keeping readers away from this blog 'coz it's not eye-friendly...

And... umm... watch out for my future posts! I've got lots of things to tell.. Especially about my fiesta experience.. So please do hop by for a while sometime!

God bless.. and sleep tight?

c=

Brrr..

I'm in a net cafe... Doing school stuff with my friend peter...

It's my first time actually, to surf the net overnight in a cafe...

Right now, my hands are getting stiff... and I'm starting to have the difficulty in typing... My mind's starting to get frozen with the coldness of this place... My mind's not working really properly so please excuse all the wrong grammars and mispelled words... The coolness of this place is keeping my hands off the keyboard... =C

I don't know if I'll last till morning.. But I guess I will... But still something's distracting me more than this freezing feeling... And it's making me wish that the airconditioner wouldn't just freeze my body but also my heart, just for tonight... Making it stop... Making it stop thinking about my special someone...

He's not too far away though. He's just in the neighboring city... for job reasons... and I don't know if at this moment he's still dancing with his friends in the bar.. having fun...

I'm not objecting with what his doing or anything... But I just can't stop myself from missing him... (Great! The radio's playing Alison Krauss' "Baby, Now That I Found You") = c And.. haha! that's another reason why I' m keeping myself awake all night tonight... 'coz I know I'd feel more depressed if I stayed at home...

So... I beg the airconditioner not to hesitate in freezing my heart just for tonight... 'coz I'd be waiting for my beau to come back and melt away all this icy feeling...

Brrrr....