Sailing

It's been ages since the last the last time I have posted something here...

A lot of changes has occured in my life.. in my perspective about life.. and everything about me..

I have realized that it's time for me to sail again. I am not the bitter person that I had become for the last two months. And not the lazy brat who just sleep and eat anymore. And most of all, I am not the person who'll just sit there and listen and do what people tell me they think I should do.

For the past 2 months I have felt how to be numb but become stronger and contented in what life has brought me. Though, that is not that easy for me at the very start.. And right now I still wouldn't know what I would feel and become if I'd ever lose something really precious the next time around..

But here I am.. Sailing.. in calmer waters I guess...

Yes.. me and my beau broke up but we got back together after 2 months... (well.. that was last week to be exact.. hehhehe) And now I am so happy... and thankful that everyone is happy for both of us..

This happy state won't last long until both of us will be able to keep things goin' or rather choose to keep things goin'... Being back together is not the end.. I know both of us would be needing a little more patience and courage with this new beginning... (=

Well.. Everything doesn't exist with that area of my life though... regarding work, I'll be regularized this month and I'll then be in for more challenges and oportunities..

Regarding my family... I'm still hoping to see them soon... But I am more than happy to help them as always... (=

...And lastly... I have learned a lot about passion and friendship...

I have established new relationships with this new world that I am in.. I so glad that I am learning to trust other people again...

And of course I have learned about artists' passion in everything that they do.. how amazing that "passion" is...

Well... I guess to sum everything up... I learned about VALUES... about "values" itself.. value-ing what you have and what is given to you.. value-ing the people that you care about and cared so much about you too....

love y'all!!!
peace out! til my next post!!!

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Quickie

This is just a quickie..! oh no! Not that kind huh..! hehehe!

I was forced to go home from work.. anyway, I just miss this place.. hope to bring a lot of changes here..

Just keep posted guys... The wake is done... I'm finished mourning... Well.. still unsure of some things.. of myself.. i guess.. but I'll be posting some stuff here....

Things are fast changing.. Time's running fast.. so.. keep on dropping by here...

I still miss a lot of stuff... loved-ones.. family and friends... and home.. of course....

I'm almost getting the hang of my job and this new life I am having...

Well.. this is the quickie! Just dropped by to say "HI!!"...

Like We Never Loved At All

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through meBut
I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

[Chorus:]
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your wayOf dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

[Chorus]

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me?

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, you never looked so good

by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill

Sailing = Drifting

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~ Mark Twain

Everything is getting into my nerves... I don't know what or how to feel.. It was just yesterday that I was so happy... Now, I have met new friends I have new opportunities and it's just now that fate turned it's back from me! To hell with everything!

I want to understand but I cannot.. I want to.. I tried to.. but.. I cannot...

I cannot fathom this sudden turn of events...

The saying above used to be a description of this blog... I just changed my mind.. I don't wanna use it anymore... Because it's driving me crazy...

I don't know how everything turned out into this messy situation... I just sailed... But now I am drifting away from everything...

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And I just thought this curse was already broken...

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It's starting all over again...

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I just hope this won't kill me...

Damn!

Fun Freebie!

Living away from home and most especially in an urban an urban place made it clear to me that there is no such thing as a freebie.. Everything you want to have and do, you have to work for it..

I guess that's reality. And it sucks!

My life isn't like the way it is way back home. Here I have no computer, no t.v., free shelter, and no free food..

It's also no place to be such a couch potato...

Anyway, I'm getting the hang of it. But still, I am trying to adapt to this new way of living, especially living with friends. And hopefully trying to gain control of myself especially after and during payday, because I (or we) tend to splurge our money unwisely.

I recieved my scond pay last June 15 and unfeortunately, my money didn't last that long. My money disappeared into thin air a week before my next payday. Not to mention, my housemates also have the same situation as I do.

Last weekend was supposed to be my (or our) most boring weekend ever here in the big city because me and my housemates were penniless.. But what happened was the opposite..

Fortunately last saturday, was the last day of the French Film Festival. Me and some friends went there to see the movies because as we've heard it's for free. Haha! You've heard that right! And it was totally worth it! We've watched two films in a row. The second movie was really awesome!

YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS FILM..

THE PERFUME: A STORY OF A MURDERER

I'm sorry but I just won't talk about the details of the movie. Just watch it yourself... You won't regret it...

It was really nice being in that theater because you're people who know how to appreciate good films.. After the movie, everyone was really clapping their hands.. Anyway, it was already late when we got home... and it was raining... But it was really a new and nice experience for us..


And on sunday, still everyne was penniless.. We spent the day chatting. And as usual, we got together during brunch...

It was already late in the afternoon when we had our meal.. And during our meal, we got ourselves talking about our childhood and the games that we used to play.

After clearing the table, we found ourselves playing "sagudsud". It was really tough for us since it is played through skipping. You have to skip your way, hitting your "pamato" (a stone) all thrioughout the play area..
Well.. it was fun! We didn't only relive our childhood days but also gave ourselves an exercise..

After playing "sagudsud", we played card games.. They're "tong-its", "chiki-cha", "1-2-3-4 pass", "karga burot", and "unggoy-unggoy"..

I don't know. But it really was the best weekend I ever had here in Cebu.. It's a lot more fun than hanging out at bars.. And what's more, is it's for free!

And well, at least.. it still is reality that money can't buy happiness... *winks*