Hello Word!!!

I am still alive (if this is what you call this) and kicking... and breathing... air.. and carbon dioxide.. and smoke.. and fart...

I am still quite homeless (just quite)... a bit of deranged (mentally).. alienated (in a lot of ways).. however, coping with these changes with acceptance... (hmmm)

I kinda miss my stuff... my art materials.. (left them in the "pink room")... I am not completely settled that's why I didn't bring them with me the day I left the pink room...

Anyway... I haven't heard anything from the rest of the world... and the rest of the world haven't heard anything from me... yeah.. haha... I just remembered!

Someone-I-once-knew told me that the reason I felt alienated or left by the people whom I considered my friends.. is BECAUSE.. of the fact that I am hanging out with a NEW CROWD... hmmmn... I didn't believe that person though... But I respect that person's idea...

I don't even have a crowd... and never even had one..

Well.. anyway... I feel like crap.. just so you know... not of something that you thought I might have done.. But with a lot of things that I just can't speak out... And remember... I know they're lurking somewhere in my delirious mind though... they're like malware.. they keep on popping-out from time to time... and they seem to increase in number...

*sigh* I f only my brain is like a friggin' computer hard disk which I can scan for errors and threats.. and clean-up to remove excess information/baggage... or just re-format when everything is really way out of hand... grrr...

I don't feel like I am going to live long enough to tell my crappy tale.. But that's fine.. doesn't matter...

Nothing matters anymore.. nothing...

I talk like I am really losing.. or you might think I AM JUST BEING PATHETIC... That's how you think.. the hell I care...

grr.. now I think I am...

Anyway... I really just need to write something out...

Really.. Just wanna say hello... (^^)/

Because I can't keep on puking.. or trying to puke.. because we can't puke words.. only alcohol and excess food digested in our stomach..

Anyway...

HELLO!

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This is the day

SEVEN

was tagged by the bluemoon..



1. wrath:
who did you last get angry with?
:: cokaliong shipping lines



who did you last get pissed off with?
:: hehe... alex



who was the last person who got really angry at you?
:: alex.. i think so..


or can you let them go easily?
:: i guess so.. haha! depends!



2. sloth:
what is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
:: stretching.. hehe.. play with my keyboard.. play rpg's... =( talk to Balto (our dog)


what's the latest you've ever woken up?
:: 9 a.m, as far as i can remember...


who have you been meaning to contact, but haven't?
:: my friend sidney..


how many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
:: 0 times.. no need for an alarm clock today.. I'm in my hometown..


3. gluttony:
meat eater?
:: yeah.. but i prefer veggies..


what is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting, outing or event?
:: hmmnn... i don't count.. =P


have you ever used a professional diet company?
:: nope..


4. lust:
how many people have seen you completely naked
:: two


ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation
:: uhuh! there were countless moments..


what's your fave part of the body?
:: men: chest and collar bone
:: women: i guess the boobs.. haha..


have you ever made a proposition with a prostitute?
:: never tried


5. greed:
if you had $1 million, what would you do with it
:: pay debts.. and travel..



you rather be rich, or famous?
:: rich


6. pride:
what is the one thing that you've done that you're most proud of?
:: being able to build my own business at the age of 16


one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?
:: got a job after bumming! haha!



what would you like to accomplish in your life?
:: there actually are a lot.. hehe.. i would like to travel, be it here or abroad... build mamang a kitchen.. maybe, finish another degree... (=


what did you do today that you're proud of?
:: told myself that i will start saving on my first pay.. and pay my debts..


7. envy:
if you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
:: someone better: taller version of me, someone who can sing better, someone who can groove a little


have you ever wished you had a different physical feature?
:: only at certain moments

May 19 Post

It's May 19. Monday. I'm in my hometown right now... in Iligan, still alive and kicking. I'm writing this post at Asia GM.. a place which transported me 4 years ago... (= where it all started.. Where "clerihew" was born... 


I'm just happy I'm back in this place.. I'm not expecting anything from my past.. especially from four years ago... I know I was happy then... But right now.. I'm happy that I'm slowly learning to trust... Slowly knowing myself again... I'm thankful.. I am still blessed after all.. We all are.. I accept what happend and I'm willing to accept what else would come... I just hope I'll be a lot stronger after all the lessons I have learned.. I'm still learning though.. It's okay.. It really pays to be a little patient sometimes...

Anyway, today is my little sister's debut.. And tomorrow I'm off for the big city again.. Hopefully, someone is waiting there for me.. to hold me.. through heat and the rain.. (=

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Just wanna take this time to post my horoscope for today:

You'll spend much energy in order to solve problems that have been shelved, but will sometimes be tempted to postpone them. Make an effort to do some physical exercise every day. In your work, you'll achieve certain ambitions dear to your heart. The time will be well chosen to explore what you always want to know. Risks of quarrel with an in-law or a close friend.