Hello Word!!!

I am still alive (if this is what you call this) and kicking... and breathing... air.. and carbon dioxide.. and smoke.. and fart...

I am still quite homeless (just quite)... a bit of deranged (mentally).. alienated (in a lot of ways).. however, coping with these changes with acceptance... (hmmm)

I kinda miss my stuff... my art materials.. (left them in the "pink room")... I am not completely settled that's why I didn't bring them with me the day I left the pink room...

Anyway... I haven't heard anything from the rest of the world... and the rest of the world haven't heard anything from me... yeah.. haha... I just remembered!

Someone-I-once-knew told me that the reason I felt alienated or left by the people whom I considered my friends.. is BECAUSE.. of the fact that I am hanging out with a NEW CROWD... hmmmn... I didn't believe that person though... But I respect that person's idea...

I don't even have a crowd... and never even had one..

Well.. anyway... I feel like crap.. just so you know... not of something that you thought I might have done.. But with a lot of things that I just can't speak out... And remember... I know they're lurking somewhere in my delirious mind though... they're like malware.. they keep on popping-out from time to time... and they seem to increase in number...

*sigh* I f only my brain is like a friggin' computer hard disk which I can scan for errors and threats.. and clean-up to remove excess information/baggage... or just re-format when everything is really way out of hand... grrr...

I don't feel like I am going to live long enough to tell my crappy tale.. But that's fine.. doesn't matter...

Nothing matters anymore.. nothing...

I talk like I am really losing.. or you might think I AM JUST BEING PATHETIC... That's how you think.. the hell I care...

grr.. now I think I am...

Anyway... I really just need to write something out...

Really.. Just wanna say hello... (^^)/

Because I can't keep on puking.. or trying to puke.. because we can't puke words.. only alcohol and excess food digested in our stomach..

Anyway...

HELLO!