mint brownies

yummy!!!

I'll bake these by the time I have my own oven..

just thoughts

I don't know which word appropriate to describe it..

lost?
torn?
blank?
dead?

I am like a tree..
a dead tree..
no flowers nor fruit..
no leaves..
just twigs and branches..

I'm still standing still though..
Through strong winds and rain..
Through dust and heat..
And look gloomier under the moonlit sky...

I am not scared.. I guess..
I have nothing to be scared of..
All I have are worries.. maybe...
And doubts..

I don't know if I am unsure..
I don't know what I want..
I don't know if I'll still bleed..

I am like a robot..

I don't why..
I don't know what..
I don't know..


I just don't know..


...


...but anyhow, I felt better writing this...

What dog breed are you?

discover your dog breed @ quiz meme

so, how am i?

Another work week has passed and again I am on day-off.

I'm juggling things in my mind: on what to do first and what and how to write my thoughts down..

So, I just came up with the question..

Yeah, how the hell am I?

Now, I know I am fine. I'm having quite the hang of adjusting and nipping my pride little by little. I feel loved, secured, and missed (by my family). A bit bored with my job but I'm not letting it get in my way though. I wouldn't want to lose another job for petty reasons again.
Anyway, last week was quite a busy week.

During payday, Bok and I went to the mall and shopped. He bought a load of stuff.. like a whole new wardrobe (just exaggerating, but it's quite like that). I bought a shirt and a cute pair of check loafers which Bok has chosen for me. I didn't really like the shoes at first though, but a lot of people find it nice. So there. But, trust me in this: don't ever shop when you're sleepless the night before and you still have to go to work in the afternoon.

Bok's officemates like to hang-out and go to some place and do stuff. So, I got quite sleepless last week. The activities for last week range from playing dota after their shift (that's 5 a.m.), so I wake up early; going to the gym and play badminton, we were supposed to go wall climbing but weren't able to; drinking and making me sing (hehehe..); and going to a comedy bar.

They're fun-loving people, as you can see. They're fun to be with. I like them because they don't treat me as "the girlfriend". But too bad I just really need to get some sleep.

And by the way, last week's r.d., I did some cleaning up. I sorted out my stuff and threw away things that don't need to be kept anymore. (I don't know if you get what I mean) And it made me feel a lot better.

But there is still one thing that needs to be done though. I had a fight with one of my officemates, a teammate, months ago. It supposedly was nothing serious but we ended up not talking to each other anymore. And I'm a bit tired of the situation. I can sense that he wants to make peace with me. But I'm quite a coward with this. Yeah, a chicken shit.

Please pray for me. I'd love to make peace with him. And make peace with myself at the same time.

But hey! I still say I am doing fine.

I'm still a work in progress but I am alive and I am kickin'. (^^)

adventures in alcoy

finally i was able to go beach after a very long time.
and finally escaped from the lights of the city with my beau.